Taking the encounter of a Kurdish mother with trauma-medicine in Diyarbakır/Amed in Kurdistan in Turkey as its object of inquiry, this paper analyses a political index of feeling otherwise through the affective state of feeling gej (“spaced-out” in Kurmanji). In colonial settings of continuous emergency, spaced out states refer to a fugitive form of political expression that needs not to be organized, collective, or even resistant by any standard to have significance as illustrative of critique. These seemingly inchoate articulations of colonial wounding reveal not only the constitution of a medical space of economic experimentation and governmental intervention, but also a fugitive state through which the Kurdish subject actively undertakes her own constitution and engages with decolonial political imaginaries to sustain mental health